Day 3 of 21
Making HIM famous.
I loved today's #P31Goal: "I am more concerned with knowing God than being known."
Can I be real with you? Are we on a solid level of friendship yet? Welp. If you like me less for what I am about to admit, then nothing but love to ya because I'm sharing anyways...
I am an army brat. At an early I was encouraged (meaning, my dad would pay me) to beat everyone in the mile run during PE. I'd be rewarded $1 for every point above a 90 that I got on my report card. My achievements were WILDLY celebrated.
And I loved it.
Quickly, I became addicted to achievement. Addicted to approval. Addicted to acceptance. Not necessarily a bad trait. Except that it was for ME. My fame. My ego. Year went by ... star of the middle school play, captain of the cheerleading team, president of several HS clubs, Homecoming Queen, Miss Harris County, full-scholarship to college, etc.
I know it sounds like I'm geeking out over "glory days" -- please forgive me for being annoying (I'll spare you the pictures).
This (unknowingly) poisonous addiction continued in my adulthood.
And ... I was all still unhappy. It was NEVER ENOUGH. I never felt GOOD ENOUGH.
Here is a candid picture of me during a "I'm not good enough" breakdowns...
Isn't that a scary cycle? Diving into the Word, begging God to fill my cup instead of worldly success... my heart began to transform. The years of competitiveness and pride make me want to vomit.
Even now... I am tearing up asking God to forgive me. Again. And again. And again.
Perhaps we are our own worst critics. But when conviction hits, you know it's real.
And what a gracious God we serve. Even when we've made our lives about us ... for decades... God forgives.
And our worth is ONLY found in Christ. Not in worldly achievements.
Ladies... I beg you. Ask God to free you from this bondage!
"A capable wife... who can find?.." No one can find her because she is humbly doing her thing. Here are some more verses to dig into today:
- Galatians 6:4
- Isaiah 2:12
- James 4:6
- James 4:10
- Jeremiah 9:23
God is looking at the condition of our hearts.
What do you feel you need to talk to God about today?
Comment Below and tell me!